Meeting the CEO

Tomorrow I'll have a meeting with our CEO about my resignation. It won't be easy because he's stubborn. Besides, my company could lose a contract because of it.
However, I can not stay any longer in the company. I see no focused professional growth for it, in my opinion. One day I work on Juniper gear, another one on very old WAN technology like ISDN. One day I went with a technician to dust off some client equipement. Is that a job for an engineer? It's stupid how the engineer is devalued here. We only get training when a contract is on the way. For example, I went to a Juniper training last summer. What did I do with it? nada.
I'd like to focus on Cisco technology. That's where the real networking industry is. The more focused skills I have, the higher in demand I'll be in the future. I prefer to be a routing/switching/voip guru than have a lot of fix-here-fix-there experience.
I'm going to prepare my speech this evening. In the worst or in the best, this week will be my last in the company.
We'll see what'll happen tomorrow.

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Awaken The Giant Within - NAC part 1

I'm using Tony Robbins' NAC technique to eradicate my negative beliefs. I began with the belief "change takes time". It's been three days since I began applying NAC to this belief.
I'm seeing changes, really. I now consistently study the final touches for BCMSN and manages my time more effectively.
The progress is not huge, but it's better than my past situation, where I used to stuck to non-value activites.
I'll keep on using the technologies from Tony Robbins.

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The Power of Beliefs is Real

I went to the mosque. " I need to take lunch rapidly and get back to the office, because Marouene needs me for something". It was closed. "What"?". Very strange. At this time doors must be open and muslims must be coming in groups. Where are they?

I looked around me. Nobody is bothered by my stupefaction. I looked at my watch again. 11:50am. I'm sure, it's time! Is there a problem with the mosque??

Then a memory flash of a conversation hit me

" -Sofiane, we need to hurry up, today is Friday and I need to be ready for the prayer.

- No Wassim, don't fool me :) it's Thursday, not Friday.

- Stop kidding me and let's continue. "

So it was Thursday ! Why did I thought it was Friday? It was so intense that undoublty thought it was Friday.

Waw. I realize now the power of beliefs. Imagine I have the same thoughts about myself, my skills, my selfconfidence. How my world would be?...

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Happy new year 2010

What's the difference? a year has gone, another year has come. If I keep doing the same mistakes, feeling the same, behaving the same, then I don't see what 2010 could be any better.

As I read my success journal at work on December 29 of 2009, I realized that I was a big dreamer and a better goal-oriented man on May 2008. It's obvious. One year has passed and little improvement occured. In 2009, I also see that my goals weakened. Instead of my 2008 dreams and goals, I set for more comfortable and less challenging ones. I took less and less action. I got comfortable with my situation. I got stuck in the daily routine and worrying each single night about my goals. I was also doubting my abilities and my dreams. There were a lot of questions in my head, as if somebody was whispering "you can't get that. Get realistic!".

What is "real"? How do you define "real"?, Morpheus said.

Is it what I see each day around me? Is it the people that have plenty of time for themselves and their beloved ones? Is it the men who enjoy the company of a beautiful wife? Is it the financially-independant guys who do what they love daily? Or is it a life of killing routine, of stress, of no challenges, of no personal fulfillment? When I thought about this, and compared it to myself and to my actions, I sometimes felt so depressed that I went to bed at 8pm, tears in my eyes.

I'm not being pessimistic here. Maybe I'm wrong in the eyes of some of you. The truth here is I'm fed up with explaining the facts with false truths. I'm fed up with mere hopes like many people. "I hope things will get better for me... I hope I'll be CCNP by the end of this year.."

So it's time to see the facts as they are. It's time to measure to which degree different areas of my life suck as I'm watching the movie and recognizing myself as the main protagonist.

May Allah make this year full of conscious and consistent life-improving actions for me and all of you.

Happy new year 2010.

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